♥ whispers of a flutterbyprincess♥

pauwi ako... naisip ko ang mga to:

bakit kailangang mag PDA ang mga mag jowa! hello?! ok lang sana kung smack or peck eh... wag nmn sana french kiss sa gitna ng kalsada! *kakakita ko lang to kanina sa glorietta 5*

bakit kailangang maging isang KABIT?... bakit hindi nalang tanggapin na pag may bf/gf or wifey or hubby ang isang tao... dapat iwasan na o wag na ipag pilitan ang sarili! diba dapat pag attached na ang isang tao, dapat loyal ka na doon sa ka relasyon mo? at kung ang lumalapit nga sayo yung attached na... dapat diba iwasan na to?

bakit pa perong it's complicated na relationship status... ano ba ito?... hindi ko kasi gets

bakit may pride? bakit pinapairal ang pride?... ano ba purpose nito? para sa akin... pinapagulo lang nito ang isipan ng isang tao o ng mga tao!

bakit ang mga tao specially boys... mahilig sa computer games? buong araw nakaharap sa pc... hindi ba sila nahihilo?

bakit ang mga girls... mahilig mag reduce ng diet... kahit hindi naman mataba?... bakit lagi tingin nila sa sarili mataba sila?... eh hindi nmn... *wala akong pag asa dito... dahil hindi ako mataba... payat ako at ng papataba*

bakit ang mga pulitika kelangang gumastos sa mga tv ads... and all that... bakit hindi nalang nila gamitin yung pondo nila para tumulong sa nakakarami? diba mas maganda yung endorsement by word of mouth?

bakit nakaka addict ang mga social networks?... self promotion at self gratification lang to mostly diba?... * oo alam ko over na nga ako sa pagpromote ng sarili ko eh... pero natutuwa kasi ako*
pero nakaka addict talaga diba?

... tomorrow na lang ulit... pagod na ako. :))

I finally renewed my Professional Regulations Commissions (PRC) License last week. And of course, experienced few glitches here and there... but hey, at least I've learned how to renew the I.D. Though I think it's better to be prepared with all the things that you'll need... So here's a guideline for those who'll be needing to undergo such process...

Here's to a hassle free PRC renewal process in Moraita, Manila.

Things to bring:

1. Photocopy of the PRC license

2. paste

3. black pen

4. money for renewal 450 php

5. money for picture 80 php

6. money for LBC payment

You can go for the EXPRESS renewal.. or the regular renewal (20 – 25 business days) where of course, you'll be the one to do all the process. Before you imagine looooooooooong lines, looooooooong hours of waiting, hot headed people, and hot crowed places... STOP... because, I opt to choose to renew it my self, and I'm ALIVE. *teehee*

Suggested Steps to follow:

1. In the information booth, located near the entrance of PRC. Tell your profession to the man on duty. Then he'll give you a form looking like the one below for REGULAR renewal.

2. Fill up the form. Make sure you don't miss out any other important information.

3. Get your pictures taken with your full name (Surname, First Name and Middle Initial) on the bottom part of the passport size I.D. Picture. You can choose to have the picture taken ahead of time, before going to PRC or you can also opt to have it taken at the MANY photo shops near the area of PRC building. Your 3^rd option would be, inside PRC. They have a picture booth there and for 80 php, 4 copies, it'll be ready in 2 minutes. that's how fast AND convenient it is. (I chose the latter)

4. As seen at the above form, depending on your Profession, you'd proceed to either Window 16, 18, or 30.

5. For profession starting with N, you'd proceed to window 16. make sure you have the filled up form with picture, another photo, and a photocopy of the PRC license.

6. Once you've reached the window counter, present the filled up form with picture, another photo, and a photocopy of the PRC license. And the person would be writing down something then they'd ask you to pay at the cashier.

7. Pay the needed amount and get the official receipt.

8. After paying, go back to the window where you presented all the form. Once at the window counter, present the form with the official receipt. The person on duty will verify it then will give you your claim stub. make sure you keep the claim stub. It's where you'd find when you'll go back to claim your I.D.

9. Once you have the claim stub you can opt to choose to pay additional 50 php (with in Metro Manila Addresses) or 70 php (Provincial Addresses) for LBC to send you your PRC I.D. Right at your home. If you chose to have it delivered by LBC,

10. Go to the booth of LBC near the picture booth. Fill out a form/ authorization form and have your claim stub ready. Make sure you fill out the “person to look for” if you won't be able to receive the package, personally.

11. Pay the allotted amount.

12. Make sure you get your receipt. Because that's where you can call the LBC customer service IF there would be some problems.

After step 12... you can now go home... wait for it. :)

There's your HASSLE FREE PRC licensing process :)

before the year ends... I take this time to unravel the things that has happened to me on the year that was 2009.

as i take the moment to unpack the year that was, i find these precious souvenirs:
1. Things i tasted, looked at, smelled, heard and touched:

• Manang Felilia's sopas, pansit, instant pansit canton, home made burgers and sandwiches.
• Mikey's Delicatessen October feast platter... nakaka high blood
  
• Sala Bistro's YUMMY puddings, fudge brownies, and wallnut pudding
  
• People's Place ... THAI food!!!
• ROYCE kurumaru milk chocolate, banana nama chocolate block, and milk chocolate chips
  
• Cyma ... rocca salata just rocked my 'effing existence! OPA!
• Smelled game davidoff for men *my gift for BB's birthday
• smelled, and felt the leather of a Louis Vuitton bag... :))
• songs: party in the USA, bad romance, crawl, lady gaga's songs

2. Experiences that strengthened me:

• Fights with B...AGAIN... over and over nmn... haha :)
  
• government biddings!... PAGASA bidding... and ALL government project biddings.. hinding HINDI ko ito makakalimutan...
  
• fighting temptations...
  
• having to work for 3 full months on weekdays and weekends! haha.. time management! *apir*

3. Life lessons that I've learned:

• being a follower is not bad...
  
• being a leader will take time... and once you're on top... learn to put your foot in the shoes of those who will be under your lead :)
  
• choose who your REAL friends are... wag yung kaibigan because kainuman... tried and tested na hanggang kasiyahan lang sila.
• pwedeng maging plastik... sa mga taong hindi mo maiiwasang plastikin... but as much as possible, NOT all the time. haha
• kissing ass will get you somewhere... at least once you're down the long line UP... :) - mo twister philosophy. (haha)
  
• FAMILY love... FAMILY time IS very important.

4. life Lessons that i need to learn:

• STILL... patience!
• STILL...trust
• learn to say NO! :) and say YES to opportunities!
  

5. This belief i outgrew:

• like what i typed earlier... i thought i'm the type of person na open book... na hindi kayang mgaging plastic... well... now... dahil sa "sales" there's what i call... being plastic to have pakikisama, and avoid disputes... as long as it is for the betterment of a relationship. kung ayaw mag patalo ng kausap mo... di let it go... save your self from the stress... :))
  

6. This conviction I lived by:

• WORK HARD... REST HARDer... health is super your way to wealth.... so everyone SHOULD stay healthy! *like last year* super HEALTH IS wealth!
  

7. These risk I took:

• well basically this year was risk free... so there were no major risks i took. :)

8. Unforgettable experiences

• ABS-CBN hang out...
  
• Sagip kapamilya Ondoy victims at Bulacan.
  
• riding on the back of a 4x4 F150... NLEX...San Beda Mountaineering boys... NLEX police escort *mga kalokohan namin ni cervantes*
  
• staying at a company as long as 1 year and 1 month... till now... love my SUN Microsystems Philippines family!... *soon to be Oracle*
  
• lunch outs haha :))
  
• isa sa mga pambato ng SSD sa mga games and kalokohan *kumapal na ang mukha ko* lol
• badminton with the pre sales group! then eat galore after! haha bali wala ang exercise!
  
• met and took a picture with my fave top fashion designer in the Philippines... Mr. Rajo Laurel! *woot woot*
  
• me and bb's kawaii photo op at time zone. *kunwari ayaw pa ni bb... pose nmn ng pose* lol
  
• Working at sun micro... great people!!!
• having Anchor Nutrition Clinic every Saturday and Sunday
• spending time with my families... :)
• ella's trip to pinas after 5 years
• My Irene Mae's week long visit back to pinas
  
• having POMPOM

9. Who influenced me most:

• my DADE... ofcourse!
  
• my boss Ms. Sheryl
• my office mates mi i, lodz, ainz, caryl, and ate jing

10. what i regret:

• hindi ng ipon.... *ulit... may pag babago ba? gaaaaaah!
  

11. The persons/living thing who meant so much to me:

• my family... dade, and mama's side
• bb and his family
• pompom
  

12. Napatunayan ko na....

• tamang mag tira ng pagmamahal sa sarili... wag lagi 100% na love para sa iba...
  
• na ang trabaho... dapat minamahal...
  

13. My unfulfilled desires:

• still go to places.... travel...shop travel shop... *hindi na ito nabago 2 years ago na ito ah* haha

• specific target goal for 2009:
  
• watch RENT musical with vonney on feb :)
• go to camsur... anniversary gift on feb 14 (goodluck)
  
• to dos: i've opened an account... make sure hindi na ako mag wwithdraw... DEPOSIT lang dapat ang gagawin ko!... then hindi na talaga ako tatamadin mag text kasi calling made my bill summit to its highest cost ever! 4K
  
• save at least 2k per cut off... => sana matupad na ito!
  

2 more days to NEW year LET's DO IT PEOPLE! let's do... let's make do... let's live to the fullest ... and let's and let's!

A 70-year old 'lolo' from the province was accompanied by a grandson to the US Embassy in Manila for his VISA interview. The lolo spoke not a word of English so the grandson translated for him. The Consul told the youngman to ask his grandfather why he wanted to go to the States.

"Bakit daw ho ninyo gustong pumunta sa Amerika?" The grandson translated.

"Sabihin mo gusto kong makita yung mga anak ko doon.."

"He said he wants to see his children there."

Fair enough, that's what the lolo's application indicated.

The Consul had another question. "Ask him why does he have to

go there?

Why can't his children just come and visit him here?"

The grandson translated this in Tagalog.

Lolo replied: "Sabihin mo kasi dito pinanganak yung mga anak ko. Nakita na nila ang Pilipinas. Gusto ko namang makita ang Amerika bago ako mamatay."

(Translation: "Tell him, my children were born here. They've seen the Philippines already. I just want to see America before I die.")

The HEARTLESS Consul was unimpressed as he declared, devoid of any emotion, that he was rejecting the visa application "because the applicant was unable to speak any word of English."

"Reject daw yung visa ninyo kasi hindi daw kayo marunong mag-Ingles."

The lolo was equally unimpressed. "Sabihin mo ito sa kanya at huwag na huwag mong papalitan ang sasabihin ko: "Putang ina niya, bakit siya nandidito eh hindi naman siya marunong mag Tagalog! ?"

Translated, "He said: You son of a bitch, how come you are here... you do not know how to speak Tagalog!?"

Taken aback, sense of humor still intact, the consul relented and approved lolo's visa application in pronto.

Go LoLo...Mabuhay ang Pinoy!!!

(Taken from The Philippine Star (newspaper), written by Boo

Chanco)

If you hear a noise outside your home or someone trying to get in your house, just press the panic button for your car.. The alarm will be set off, and the horn will continue to sound until either you turn it off or the car battery dies. This tip came from a neighborhood watch coordinator. Next time you come home for the night and you start to put your keys away, think of this: It's a security alarm system that you probably already have and requires no installation. Test it. It will go off from most everywhere inside your house and will keep honking until your battery runs down or until you reset it with the button on the key fob chain. It works if you park in your driveway or garage. If your car alarm goes off when someone is trying to break into your house, odds are the burglar/rapist won't stick around. After a few seconds all the neighbors will be looking out their windows to see who is out there and sure enough the criminal won't want that. And remember to carry your keys while walking to your car in a parking lot. The alarm can work the same way there. This is something that should really be shared with everyone. Maybe it could save a life or a sexual abuse crime.


P.S. I am posting this because I think it is fantastic. Would also be useful for any emergency, such as a heart attack, where you can't reach a phone. My Mom has suggested to my Dad that he carry his car keys with him in case he falls outside and she doesn't hear him.. He can activate the car alarm and then she'll know there's a problem.

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Goal: To participate in relief operations for Sagip Kapamily in Meikawayan Bulacan for typhoon Ondoy Victims

Date: Sept. 29, Tuesday.

Meeting place: Mo. Ignasia Gate... ABS-CBN Studio Tour Office

Time: 7:30 pm
ETD: 10:30 pm
ETA in Meikawayan, Bulacan: 11:30 pm - 12:00 mid night

TL: Cherry and Avel

Gov. Mendoza provided the 10 wheeler truck.


Had the privileged to serve and take part in one of MANY sagip kapamilya relief operations. I was suppose to start last September 28, Monday... but due to crappy communication lines... was not able to join the first batch.

Got to Mo Ignacia gate around 7:30 ish... got inside the loop and prepared for this important night. Tied up my hair in ballet buns... and secures my bangs with a black headband... for less worries and hassle free movements while giving out the relief goods to the victim of typhoon Ondoy.

8:00 pm Met up with Ethyl, my friend way back in college... from our thesis making in Baguio, PMA.

8:00 pm to 9:30 pm hanged out inside the studio tour office... YES... HANGED OUT! unfortunately, our friends from ABS told us that the relief volunteers were restricted due to some concerns regarding security of their artists and security of the volunteers themselves... and not only that, since we will be the one's who will distribute the goods to the relief center in Bulacan, it is much better to save some energy.




10:00 pm... assembly of volunteers behind the mother Ignacia gate., but inside ABS-CBN...
This is one of th highlights that I truly liked about the Sagip Kapamilya... we created a human chain... carried what goods to be carried over till the 10 wheeler truck got full...

10:30 pm... left Mo. Ignaia Compound and went to the volunteer center behind I have 2 eggs restaurant... again... created a human chain to carry over cartons to give people in evacuation centers as their mat for sleeping I had so much fun loading goodies and other materials inside the truck that I didn't even realize these would make me end up sore all over the next day...

11:30 pm... waiting... waiting... and waiting for go signal...

12:00 midnight we left quezon Ave...in convoy, Riding at the back of an F150 pick up... *YES AT THE BACK! among the 10 San beda mountaineering Org guys and a girl* (of course this is my friend, Ethyl) ... with a 10 wheeler truck, an elf with guys from other mountaineering clubs.

THIS IS THE PART THAT I also enjoyed too much! FIRST time to ride, travel out of town, and volunteer for Sagip Kapamilya in an open 4X4... WHOOHOO!!!

some bumps here and there, like of course THE obvious... NO back riders in an open elf and Pick up is allowed in North Express Way... *toinks* so we had to wait for about 30 mins or so for our Skyway Patrol escort...

1:15 am... FINALLY reached our destination... but to our dismay... the barangay Captain did not personally welcome us, the kagawad who were suppose to wait for us did not notice our arrival. *oh well... who wouldn't notice a TEN WHEELER TRUCK that has Bulacans Governor's face all over... right?* the reason behind it was, they were drinking right in front of their municipal.

1:30 am... the guys unloaded the relief goods inside the 10 wheeler truck because the truck can't actually fit inside the streets going to their barangay hall... and upon knowing that our TL agreed that the barangay will be the one to distribute the relief goods the following day. WTF! I personally wanted to make sure that the relief goods would wind up in the houses or the people who needed them most... that's plainly one of the reasons why I volunteered to give my time and body for human labor, so I could some what make sure this happens... BUT what can we do?.. the Barangay captain ordered the Kagawads to tell us that we should not wake the neighborhood anymore... because it's already late and that, they were tired... ok ok... the Captain had a point... BUT... for me... it's not a good enough reason.



2:oo am we have reached their barangay hall... and the place where there was flood up to chest high BEFORE... when we got there, it barely reached my knees... and i'm only 4'11''....
(ok... ng evaporate na or na wala na yung tubig baha when we got there)... but even so... we should have prioritized those areas who are in GREATER need of help...







seeing this... I personally got disappointed, and felt that I wasted my time... If i wanted to help out... I should have just gone around UST campus where there was actual flood... *I kept quiet* and kept these nagging thoughts to myself... I thought I was the only one who was feeling this way... my friend Ethyl questioned the kagawads... but to our dismay... they said they were just following orders. together with the rep. from abs, we took a look of the barangay hall... gawd! asenso! may aircon! haha.... *just really really hope this will be reported back to persons concerned*



ANYWAY... beiang with people who almost have the same goal as mine (btw that's helping out Typhoon Ondoy victims)... I felt good... at least good enough in spite what had happened...

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Dad taught me how to shoot. From Air Gun, to a riffle, and pistol. It was in the family to be passionate about guns... (=

Dad taught me nasty stuffs that ladies like me have, or could not imagine doing. Like:

a. kill a bird and or rats by shooing it.

b. strangling mouses on the sticky mouse trap

Dad taught me the basics when inside the bathroom

a. clean behind the ears

b. scrub the body with towel

c. use bath comb when shampooing and rinsing hair

d. recycle bath water to use for flushing

e. wash undies after taking a bath

f. how to propertly wash hands. The o.r. Doctor way

g. to ALWAYS squeeze the toothpaste tube by the rear end.

h. ALWAYS think of the next person who'll use the bathroom... replace water in the timba or drum.

Dad taught me the importance of having good and complete set of teeth. (At my dad's age of 62, he still have comple set of teeth.)

Dad taught me that no matter how computerize or hi – tech the world can get... reading the book IS still the best way to go.

Dad taught me that effective communication thru proper questioning and note taking, while on email,personal or thru telephone call, is still the best. SMS are just there to complement communication not to REPLACE it. Having and sending SMS is not a reaon to slack off on communication.

Dad taught me to know my limit, accept my limitations and take measured steps at all times. (tho I often times forget this)

Dad taught me that Jesus Christ is my savior.

Dad taught me to present my self well, at all times.

Dad taught me that being BLIND or having disabilities CAN BE an advantage. (my dad is blind, but it never became an issue to him or anyone who knew him)

Dad taught me to overcome fear... tho I haven't overcome the fear of sleeping without any lights on. This is ONLY in my room in our old house. HAHA

Dad taught me to learn how to bend like the bamboos when the wind calls for it.

Dad taught me to persevere and excel in the things that I get my self into.

Dad taught me to continue to strive for the very best in everything.

Dad taught me to not want things that aren't within our means. Dad taught me to live frugally.

Dad taught me to be trust worthy.

Dad taught me to value and always have palabra de honor

Dad taught me to be analytical... tho at times I often find myself to be a katipunera... Sugod ng sugod.

Dad taught me not to be a burden to any body else. Learn to pick your own self, learn to help others pick themselves.

Dad taught me important legal actions like:

a. Never speak unless your lawyer is with you

b. venta con facto

c. pre-nuptial agreement

d. Never sign anything that concerns with the Pulis, Army, Work, or anything. This leads to;

e. When in doubt ALWAYS consult a lawyer

Dad taught me to pick my fights. And Dad taught me to start a fire when you have a VALID reason

Dad taught me to understand and adapt to whatever situation that I am in.

and the most important thing that Dad taught me... was Dad taught me to be myself. Being a bastard does not define who you are or who you'll be.

There are sooo many things that taught me... it's just sad that I forget the wisdom dad has shared with me sometimes, but

I love my dad. I am lucky to be his daughter.

August 1, 2009 - Former President Corazon C. Aquino lost her battle to cancer of the colon @ 76
August 1, 2009 - 10 hours @ Taguig for Family Viewing
August 1-2, 2009 - Former PCCA's body in La Salle GreenHills for public viewing
August 3, 2009 - Motorcade from Greenhills to Manila Cathedral...

As we were waiting for the Former PCCA's motorcade at the 32nd floor of Philam Life Tower, people gathered along Makati Ave. and around Paseo De Roxas where Ninoy Aquino's Statue was... there were yellow confetti's, and in the background, songs of makabayan theme were played.

People were patiently waiting and eager to see the Former PCCA, MOTHER OF PHILIPPINE DEMOCRACY, an exceptional example of Women Empowerment, a mother, a fighter and a FILIPINO woman.

I know it's such a bore to read about the life and love life of a person. But I wanted to share some things. Some things that might help people. Please be patient, I am really not a good writer, I usually miss spell words and my grammar might get off track from time to time, but just bare with me... you'll get something out of this... may it be negative... or positive. I do hope it's the positivity of this writing that you would remember, despite the negativity of it. (huh?) just read on...

I use to think that I had it all going... I came from a middle class family who has given not just what I needed but also what I have selfishly asked for. But don't get me wrong, tho, I got every little thing I have whined about, I never was a brat. The reason I got what I wanted, was because I had Aunties and Uncles who treated me like their little princess. But my dad, being an upright man that he is, he was the one who balanced and corrected my attitude. To the point of acting differently when I am with my dad and with my Aunties and Uncles.

I had the nothing but the best clothes, toys, hobbies like target shooting and hunting, trips, summer classes, ballet school and performances at PICC and the Meralco Theater, education and whatever things that a little girl ever dreamed of. At least that's what I thought, and at least I thought these things would help me to become a better person.

When I was in college, I met a boy, that forever changed who I am, who I thought I was, and one of the reason why I am who I am today. I have met alot of diffrent guys, dated some, and loathed some. But this particular boy was diffrent from all he guys that I have met. I did not know whether to loath him or like him. At first I loathed him so much that I didn't want anything that has to do with him... But in the end I lost and he has won my heart.

We started as friends. We confided to each other. We have shared our happiness, and dramas in life. He was the first guy who connected with my weirdness, and defied me with the ideals that I have learned in life. He spoke to me like he trusted me with his life, and I also begun to trust him with my life. With this, without knowing, I had developed a stronger feeling towards him. I hesitantly told my self that I was falling for this guy.


Now I know that. YES it is true, like what Paolo Chelo wrote,only LOVE can change a person.

I have given my all,and defied my dad and family, who has always been nothing but good to me. Argued with friends who felt and knew that I was getting into deep shit. But what I did, I let my self fell so hard, that now, as I am typing this and crying at the same time, I wish I could have just listened to all of them. YES... you can say I am regretting it all. But there are things in life that you should not...

I have lost everything... even my weight. From 95 lbs, over 2 years, my weight went down to 86 lbs. I looked like a sick old maid. I have forgotten to take good care of myself... at one point, I looked like an old maid... because I have given him everything... and left nothing for my self... Yes, I am correlating my weight loss to my love life and life experiences. (=

what I am trying to say is... when you love... there will be tendencies that you'll forget everything and everyone.. you feel like everyone disappears and only the 2 of you remain... this is not bad at all... BUT always try to remember tho how much cliche it is... to save a little love for your self... because you'll never know what will happen... people change... whether you like it or not... but what is important, is that you know who you truly are with or without the person you love.

so here's now what i will do... i'll bring back my weight like before... like I'll bring back the old honey... I will take care of my self... the way I take care of my BB... I will continue to be happy... with or with out my BB... Anyway, Happiness can only be found in one's self... NOT in money, beauty, and other people...

Getting my weight back to 95

July 30, 2009 actual weight: 42 kilos 92 lbs.

Height: 4' 11"

Ideal Weight for Height: 44.88 kilos / 45 kg - 98.73 ibs / 99 lbs

Ideal Weight Range for Height: 89 lbs - 109 lbs

Target Weight: 95 lbs

Weight to gain: 3 lbs

so let's see... how i will gain this 3 lbs...

I have yet again experienced that "spirit of the Stairway" french phrase... In French: esprit d’Escalier...you know the thing that happens to you when ...that moment when you find the answer but it’s too late. This happened to me over the weekend. and one of the reasons why I so freaking got angry!

So you’re at a party and someone insults you. You have to say something. So, under pressure, with everybody watching, you say something lame. But the moment you leave the party…As you start down the stairway, then - magic. You come up with the perfect thing you should’ve said. The perfect crippling put down. That’s the Spirit of the Stairway. The trouble is, even the French don’t have a phrase for the stupid things you actually do say under pressure. Those stupid, desperate things you actually think or do.”

It's like i always mentally pass out when i get into a fight. i can't find the right words to express how i truly feel... i just blurt out whatever stupid thing that crossed my freaking brain... it's like i always get into fights, but i never learned how to win it...

seriously, it is becoming stupidly boring to always get into fights with the wrong subject, wrong place and time, and always loose it. i wanna learn how to fight ice with ice, fire with fire... not the other way around.

i have heard this phrase from my boss during Sun-Phil's team building. To be honest, it was the first time I have heard of it. (= that is why it has struck me so immensely.

in his speech he reiterated to us that, in the challenges that life brings you, you won't be able to win them all... you just have to accept the fact that, as humans you have limitations... BUT you always have your forte in some things... take note of SOME... NOT all things (=

may it be work... love, or life in general... we have our limitations, so always remember, DON'T BE A HERO...

Well, This pertains to why I got so angry and hated so much over the weekend... I DID everything in my power to help out... BUT my efforts were just unappreciated. Thanks to B... but now all is well... I hope so...

wheeeeeeeeee! got my blog back! (= i was talking about in on twitter yesterday... more of wishing... then fast forward now... i saw my old blog!... will be soon be updating here! it's still a mess right now but it's a good start! (= gotta go!

As I take the moment to unpack the year that was, I find these precious souvenirs:

1. Things I tasted, looked at, smelled, heard, and touched:
For the first time ever, I ate at the hospital canteen!!! (1st day duty in veterans 12/12/05), la coste pink, bath and body cotton hand wash and cologne, pinoy music appreciation is back in my vocabulary : )

2. Experiences I will cherish:
Spending a day in manila zoo with the ust adopted community kids for UST-UNICEF, and being their ate for a day. The AIESEC XPERIENCE in Subic. The retreat in Caleruega Batangas…and that breathtaking view that made me feel that I was not and never was alone. Night outs with my best friend 3x. Practicum (and it’s still on going…) food service in ihaw1 and albergus…kakapagod sobra! Pero enjoy xa. Hospital practicum…veterans… (I think it’s a sign form God that, I really should take up geriatrics after college) and up next…the community practicum…alaminos, Laguna! (For a month, i’ll be living with my blockmates…pinoy-ust big brother bang version ito?!?)

3. Life lessons I need to learn:
To Take my time… not to rush…and just hush…once in a while

4. This belief I outgrew:
that if you give everything…time, love, affection, care, concern, all that mushy eeeky things… a lady’s man will and can change. But NO… once a babaero…always will be a babaero for life. *ahem* CHALLENGE: to every self confessed, or unaware, or just plainly pasaway babaeros out there: patunayan nyo na mali ako at pwede mabago yan. coz I lost hope na… *ahem* ku…ya …da..de..at kala mo nka ligtas ka… IKAW din noh!*winkZ*

5. This conviction I lived by:
I’ll be who I want to be…and no one can stop me! You can TRY… and that’s all you have…

6. These risk I took:
…still…BATTLE SCARS...Giving so called “love” a chance…still the same… but am happy : )

7. These sufferings strengthened me:
Overspending and being broke… to being sobra kuripot then over splurge… ewan ko…buti na lang wala akong card! Buti na lang

8. What influenced me most:
Mi PAPA’

9. What I regret:
Being impatient… and I should have just felt his heartbeat than looking straight into his eyes that night… he was a liar… a damn good liar. He STILL IS a liar… a very good liar…

10. The persons who meant so much to me:
EVERYONE…from the ones who thought that they made my life a living hell… kala nyo you’ve succeeded? NO… thank you pa coz you’ve even made me STRONGER! All I can say is…what comes around goes around… what comes up must go down… haha… then of course, my family, dade specially, my real friends (you know who you are) and my Lord and my God…

11. My unfulfilled desires:
Before graduation, I must go to Thailand, after graduation, I’ll go to Hong Kong, after reviewing for the board examsq and after passing the board, I’ll go to Korea, Japan, and to Berlin for the love parade. then …still…I want to go bungee jumping, trek the crater of mt. Pinatubo, go to bora with friends ONLY, go to paris (hoy von! Bago matapos ang 1st year ng work ha???!!!), go to spain (ms. paula gonzales, my dearfriend… is your offer still good? *winkZ*)…buy an ipod, WORLD PEACE! - Tschüs! Adios! Año 2005!