♥ whispers of a flutterbyprincess♥

my brother once asked me...”what would you do if you didn't have a clue on to what the answer in a multiple test question?” knowing myself... i was always playing safe... so i said, i'd leave it blank...then he told me that it wasn't a trick question, that he wan't trying to ploy me... so, he asked me again...well... i said that i'd probably WILL leave it blank...then he started sharing his thought about it and asked about some things about how i live my life... and i got into sharing things that have happened with my life so far...he said that it’s ganon talaga, sugod ng sugod...what's the worst that can happen? you fail? well shit, try and try again then i told him how i tried things out... only to hurt myself in the end because i know i failed... not only my own self but also the people around me, which he countered with telling me the I didn’t fail…I TRIED things, figured out it wasn't for me. that's life. ganyan lang talga, you gotta keep gettin up, keep trying. if one doesn't work, at least you're young enough to bounce back and keep trying. you know what? you won't know that unless you keep trying.all that i could say was..guess... no harm naman least you tried.. which my brother agreed then explained what possible things that could happen if i leave it blank..
· if you don't put an answer, you're 100% wrong ...

· if you guess, at least you have a 20% of getting it right.

Explanation why I wanted to leave it blank…
· i said leave it blank, coz i was so afraid of getting it wrong....but what I don’t realize is, by leaving it blank, I’m just guaranteeing that I’m wrong.

So the thing to do is… you gotta keep trying, kung mali, or if you fail, then at least you know it's not for you...it will help you make better choices next time. And better ask God’s guidance. He’ll never leave you hanging…

As I take the moment to unpack the year that was, I find these precious souvenirs:

1. Things I tasted, looked at, smelled, heard, and touched:
carbonara made by Yvonne et al. AND the backed MAC me and paula made…(the one that got spilled over the door of the oven…but still the gang ate it! …hehehe now guys, you know…we’re sooo sorry!...sayang eh…pero delish right?),looked at the cute babies at the malnutrition ward over at ust…a bittersweet moment, sent of moonflower and papaya oil mist by body shop, music of mymp/spongecola/switchfoot/kitchie nadal/chicosci/ and bamboo, touched *Mac cardona’s abs!* winkZ*

2. Experiences I will cherish:
Spending a day in tarlac with the aieta community and playing with the kids there, and realizing that I love my life, even though it’s all twisted and fucked up.
Those overnight stays of friends over at our house, especially the night that almost all of US were complete (Camille!!!! wasn’t there!...) even Cat and Paula- the 2 college students I know, who can’t stay out after 6 pm, stayed over just to make sure that we’ll be able to see Ella take the flight for L.A.
The day Ella left for L.A. (ahh!...the dreaded day for all of us!) miss you girl!
And Being around my childhood friends! And now mah soul sistahs

3. Life lessons I learned:
Take your time… don’t rush… coz it won’t do any good!

4. This belief I outgrew:
Belief in democracy... in today’s time… do we still have it? Does it still prevail and stand for what it insists on? – I mean… in our PI government… whatdyathink?

5. This conviction I lived by:
Dream BIG…coz it will serve as your guide in life

6. These risk I took:
BATTLE SCARS...Giving so called “love” a chance… but got trampled upon by some asswh*le(well, guess am gonna hafta choose the best one(s) next time! wahahaha) but I took pleasure on seeing their stupid faces 1st, and then gave em a chance to take revenge at my expense! Well, that’s how the cycle of stupidity works! the experience was FUN and interesting tho! Teehee

7. These sufferings strengthened me:
Overspending and being broke… and TaPy, owee, chaps and aikey (hey cLdiary!, salamat!) am getting the hang of it!

8. What influenced me most:
My living, talking, opinionated cLdiary! Gracias mi amiga!
Mi PAPA’

9. What I regret:
Just 1 thing…NOT being forthright…

10. The persons who meant so much to me:
EVERYONE… and those who made the year 2004 FUN FUN FUN!

11. My unfulfilled desires:
I want to go bungee jumping, trek the crater of mt. Pinatubo, go to bora with friends ONLY, go to paris (hoy von! Bago matapos ang 1st year ng work ha???!!!), go to spain (ms. paula gonzales, my dearfriend… is your offer still good? *winkZ*) buy an ipod, ibook, digicam (canon ixus),…………………………….list goes on….. WORLD PEACE! - Tschüs! Adios! Año 2004!